Friday, May 17, 2013

Hello out there


Hello.  Who knows if anyone is still even checking this darn blog.  I have abandoned it the last few months.  Life has been full of stress and joy in equal measure.  I've had this post in draft mode for months, but have had a hard time finding the right words to accurately describe what the last few months have been like for me and my family. 

Before I get started...let me tell you that everything is ok now and we are now a happy family of four...but it was a pretty bumpy road to this point.  So...if you were hoping for a craft project, sorry.  The only thing that has been more neglected than this blog is my craft desk.  Cobwebs and dust bunnies have taken over.  I am happy to report that I am in the process of clearing out my craft room and am looking forward to crafting in the very very near future.

The last time that I checked in, I was on bed rest awaiting the birth of my son.  During what I thought was a fairly routine appointment with my maternal fetal specialist, she determined that my little one needed to be delivered as soon as possible.  My husband and I stopped by the house and quickly picked up my hospital bag and headed to the hospital.  In my head (and out loud) I just kept saying, "this is too soon."  My OB tried to give my little one the benefit of at least another 24 hours so I could have two steroid shots to help boost his lungs, but it was just not meant to be.  While we were hooked up to the monitors, the baby's heart rate started dipping...drastically.  Within minutes I was in the operating room, and my little one was born nine weeks early, while his mommy was out cold under general anesthetic and his poor daddy was waiting in the hospital room for someone to come and bring him to the OR.  Not only was there an underlying problem, Gavin had managed to wrap his umbilical cord around his neck and arm multiple times, so it really does feel like a miracle that I was even at that appointment.  (Random fact: my OB has only ever performed ONE other c-section while the mom was under general anesthetic.) (2nd Random fact: my OB could watch our monitors on her iPhone while she was supposed to be enjoying her day off, so when she saw the heart rate dip - she  headed back to the hospital.) 
First time holding Gavin - 4 days after he was born.
December 3rd was the first of 53 of the longest days of my entire life.  The best way to describe it is that if you happened to see me or talk to me during one of those days - you were seeing me and speaking to me on the worst day of my life...over and over again.  I know that probably seems like an exaggeration to most of you, but you'll just have to trust me.  Our journey taught me many things.  It reminded me again that I cannot control everything.  I did everything humanly possible to stay pregnant  and give my son as much time as possible, but I still couldn't carry him to term.  When I hear other moms talk about their "birth plans," I always think to myself...do you REALLY think you can plan that?  Let me tell you...the baby is in charge of the whole thing.  I know that LOTS of women have babies without the aid of modern medicine, but without modern medicine I wouldn't have survived my daughter's birth and I KNOW Gavin wouldn't have survived.  That is a sobering thought.  Gavin's doctors and nurses were all amazing.  Gavin's hospital stay also taught me that sometimes you have to ask for help.  There is no way we could have managed to keep everything going without help.  It was vital for me to spend as much time as possible at the hospital with Gavin, but I also had a five year old that needed her mommy too.  Brandon's mom helped out so much with Nicole and helped us keep everything running at home.  I will also give you a tip - if someone you know has ANY kind of crisis, the nicest thing you can do is bring dinner.  Even if you don't cook - take-out is appreciated.  I cannot tell you how much we appreciated NOT having to worry about what to make for dinner.  Finally, I think the NICU taught me to try and enjoy EVERY moment.  I was happy for ANYTHING that I could do for Gavin while he was in the hospital.  I happily changed diapers, bathed and fed him any chance that I could.  I am trying to keep that going...up at night with a baby - who cares! He'll only be a baby for such a finite amount of time.  Screaming fits - oh well!  He's my last baby, so I'll never have another screaming baby.  I just want him to stay healthy and happy.
On our way home! 
Gavin is now 5 1/2 months and is doing great!  His little personality is really starting to emerge and I cannot wait to see who he becomes.  Nicole has been the best big sister.  The last year has been filled with so many changes and stresses, but she has weathered everything really well.  Gavin loves her so much and thinks she's pretty much the greatest thing ever.  I am so lucky to be their mom.     

If you are still reading this, thank you!  I am hoping that my next post will include a craft project.  Fingers crossed!!!

35 comments:

Shelly said...

I'm so sorry you & the family had to go through this, but so happy to hear all is well and what a beautiful family you have!
Shelly

One Krafty Chick said...

So happy to hear all is well and the storm seems to have passed! Love on those little ones because they don't stay little for long!

Anonymous said...

So happy that everything worked out in the end. Keep the pictures coming.

Christine Riley said...

Hi Lauren, I know we don't know each other in real life, but I feel like I've gotten to know you through the crafting community both here on your blog and on facebook. I have been praying for you and your family and am SO glad to read that baby Gavin is doing so well! I'm so happy for you all!
Hugs, Christine

buglvr2010 said...

Beautiful pictures, Lauren! so happy ya'll are doing well now!

Melissa said...

Great news and such joyful photos.

Anonymous said...

So glad to "hear" from you again. I understand what a toll this takes on you and your family. My sis in law just went through the same thing not long after your journey began. 9 weeks early is very scary. You have a beautiful family. Take the time to enjoy them and don't worry about the blog. We will all be here waiting when you decide to return. Love your work!

Glora said...

What a beautiful post Lauren. You have a beautiful family and I too am so thankful for modern medicine. I have needed help bringing all 3 of mine into the world and each is a miracle and blessing. I can not even try to understand how hard those 53 days had to have been. You are AMAZING!!!! Hugs- Glora

Michele said...

Of course we are reading your darn blog!! :) I love every word you typed here! So sorry for everything you endured... but I bet it makes you appreciate the little things all the more. And like you said, up at night with a baby "Who cares" or screaming fits "Oh well." Oh and my all time favorite.. your comment about people that have birthing plans. Really? I never had on either. And I'm afraid to say the people that I know that did have "Life Plans" for this kids too... well Life just happens and these kids turn into their own individuals. We just can't "Plan" that. (I have 2 kids, girl 10, boy almost 7) You have the utmost PERFECT attitude and that means you are a good MOM!! I think I have only ever commented on your blog once... but LOVE all the things you create and now I am seeing that I love the way you think! Yay for you! You deserve every bit of happiness that your family brings! Good to see you again!
Michele

silly_girl_823 said...

I am so glad that you and your family are all healthy and happy now. I know that I can not relate completely because everybody's experience is different but I too had preemie babies, my twin boys born at 29 weeks. Your pictures are wonderful and so glad you guys are just able to look forward to the fun times now! Thank you very much for sharing with us all.

Amy V

~amy~ said...

Oh Lauren, my eyes were watering reading your post. I'm so happy to her that things are going well...both of your babies are beautiful:)

Linda said...

Congrats! I am so happy to hear you are all well.

Lacie said...

Love this blog and all your craft projects, glad you're back and your sweet baby is doing well! I have 2 little ones who were born prematurely, my first also being 9 weeks early. So amazing what they can do for these little ones now days! My girls are 3 years old and 10 months old now and you'd never guess they had a rocky start! The NICU is amazing!

Houses Built of Cards said...

SOOOOO glad to hear you are all doing well!!! Thanks for sharing your story - and for the beautiful pictures of your family! Thanks for the reminders to enjoy every moment - even the ones that seem rough at the time! Hugs to you!!!

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Anonymous said...

Congratulations on the birth of your son. I am glad that everything is on the upswing for you all. Best wishes to you and you family. Enjoy!

Crafting Katie said...

Lauren, I am so happy to hear that you are home from the NICU and little Gavin is doing well. He is absolutely beautiful! My 17 year old spent 3 months in the NICU as a 27 weeker, and your post just bring it all back. It's such a roller-coaster in there, but now your are home, and he is doing well. Enjoy every minute of it!

craftymom205 said...

Congrats on the birth of you son. Glad that everything is looking up for you and your family.

craftymom205 at yahoo dot com

Scrappy Moms Stamps said...

You have an amazing little family! I am so glad that you are all happy and healthy now. Can't wait to see what you create when you get back in the groove. :)

{{{ HUGS }}}

Mel

~Molly~ said...

Congratulations! I am so glad that Gavin is happy and healthy at home with his family!!

Lisa Kay said...

Thank you for catching me up...I do not know what I would do with out Lauren's Creative...just LoVe your blog...sending my love and prayers to you and your beautiful family!

Jeanette said...

First of all, CONGRATULATIONS!, and many blessings to you and your family...secondly, forget the craft projects and just enjoy your time with your children...time flies by too quickly and before you know it they are all grown up...take it easy and just enjoy them....

Jeanette said...

First of all, CONGRATULATIONS!, and many blessings to you and your family...secondly, forget the craft projects and just enjoy your time with your children...time flies by too quickly and before you know it they are all grown up...take it easy and just enjoy them....

lula1206 said...

Congratulations! May The Lord bless you and your family. What a time to celebrate!
Looking forward to your project whenever you feel like scrapping again.

Stephanie said...

What a trying time you went through. I hope everything is fine and stays that way. He's gorgeous, BTW. You look so happy. Enjoy.

Barbara said...

I am so glad that everything turned out weii. I first found you on youtube. May GOD contiue to keep you in his arms.

Jens Craft Corner said...

Oh Lauren, I am so glad your bag is home and doing well. I can't imagine how trying those days must have been for you. I have been checking your blog every couple of days to see if you had posted about your baby. So glad things are going well now and your family is all together at home. My craft desk has been collecting desk too. It's my goal to get it organized and get crafting!

flscraplady said...

I am so glad this story has a happy ending. You are truly blessed. I am so sorry you had to go through what you did but it is all worth it now. I will say prayers for you and your family. Thank you for letting us know. We have all missed you.
Diane

~ Jo ~ said...

It is amazing how one's story can bring you back to something of your past. I too, had a child born early and hospital stays were a part of my life for a little while. Sometimes life takes us on a ride that we didn't expect to go on but in the end, it usually always works out. I am glad that you are happy and that your son Gavin is doing well and adjusting. Those are the moments to cherish the most. Your crafting will come back in time when you are ready. You and Gavin needed these months to bond. Enjoy it because he will grow faster than you blink. Looking forward to seeing what you create soon!

Hugs,
Jo

Happymom2010 said...

Oh Lauren,I'm so happy for you and your family, now you are at home all TOGETHER!!!!
Hugs,
Gina Lindsey

janner said...

Congrats! I'm so happy everything has finally resolved itself. Your children are beautiful.
Hugs,
thejanner@xcelco.on.ca

Cricutjunkie said...

Lauren, what an inspirational story. I am so happy to hear you and your family are doing fine. You have been missed. Looking forward to awesome LO of Gavin. TFS your story. Traci

Jaren said...

Lauren, I am so happy you finally have your little at home. I would check your blog and FB occasionally to see if you posted an update on everything, and I was so excited when I saw you post last week and knew that things seemed to be getting better. Congratulations on your new baby boy! God Bless!

Katie A. said...

Hi Lauren,

I wondered how you and your baby might be doing...I checked your blog every now and then checking for updates. Glad to hear that after a long journey, you and baby Gavin are doing well! :) xo

Katie A.

Melissa said...

Wow, all I can say is God is good!!! I am so glad to see your post and have been waiting to hear from you! Be blessed!

Craftymv said...

This is my first time posting on your blog, and I wanted to let that I am very happy for you and your family to see Gavin home with the family. hope that you will soon be posting again. Take your time of course to spend time with Gavin and family!